You may wonder what caused this sudden change in tone? Two words: Big Boss.
On Monday I had my first 'evaluation interview'. Normally a time to see how the past few months went and what needs to be improved the next few. I had the interview with my direct chef (Assistant Manager), his chef (Restaurant Manager) and Big Boss (Franchise Owner, has 4 McD's). Big Boss was in a hurry, so he asked if we could start with the conclusion. The AM had written the report about me, and talked it through with the RM.
Anywayyyy, bottom line was that I needed to become tougher on the crew. I socialize too much with them, which could undermine my authority. Furthermore I needed to get stricter on following all procedures. When someone forgets his namebadge or cap, I'm supposed to send him back home to get it. Even when it's busy. But the good news was that I was showing a lot of commitment, putting effort into it and seemed motivated.
Big Boss wasn't too impressed with it though. Out of the blue, I was told that I needed to straighten up my act before September 1st, or my contract wouldn't be renewed. And then Big Boss left the office room. The others continued to recite their report afterwards, and I simply sat there, stunned. This is my thanks for working my butt off, working extra shift without complaining and trying to do my job as good as possible? F*ck you, Big Boss!
He only needed to needed to listen 5 minutes to form his conclusion. He doesn't want to invest any more time and money in me, if he's not sure I'm up to the task of being a manager at McD's. He didn't look at my progress these past 4 and a half months I've been working there, he simply saw me as a possible liability. The weakest link, or at least, that's how I feel right now. I have 6 more weeks to prove myself and my worth.
And that's something I refuse to do. I know I still have some things to learn, I know I sometimes overlook a task, but the way Big Boss treated me is a kick in the ribs. My motivation has just dropped to an all time low.
After sharing this wonderful news with my parents (I even cried on the phone), the whole rumor mill started to work. The next day I got calls from my aunt, an uncle, my dad again and my mom again. All of them with different advice for me, ranging from "If you can't toughen up, you'll never be a manager" to "Quit today, and go and work for the radio or television." I'm too confused....
I should write more, but I'm too tired to go on right now. I'll try and update tomorrow. If anyone's reading this... I could use a hug right about now.